Andrew出场后和Pierre有一段对话,引出了他所处人生的状态。
Never, never marry, my dear fellow! That's my advice: never marry till you can say to yourself that you have done all you are capable of, and until you have ceased to love the woman of your choice and have seen her plainly as she is, or else you will make a cruel and irrevocable mistake. Marry when you are old and good for nothing—or all that is good and noble in you will be lost. It will all be wasted on trifles
带着这样的婚姻疲惫感,Andrew毫不意外的离开了带有身孕的妻子,投身于俄法之间的战争中。这是某种程度的逃避吧。战争的第一部分并没有特别惊心动魄,大量的行军,操练,军队生活也不像我想象中的严苛。Andrew家族的地位在《战争与和平》中应该是主角中最高的。其父亲是叶卡捷琳娜女王的直系血脉,他自己也担任最高统领的副官。Andrew对沙皇有着和大多数俄国人一样狂热的崇拜。皇帝这个概念,并不像在近代中国革命中这样被攻击,丑化的厉害。无论法国皇帝拿破仑,还是俄国皇帝亚历山大,在那个时候都是很受人民爱戴的,对自己祖国和民族的认同感与自豪感,都是和热爱自己的皇帝联系在一起的。Andrew也正是带着这样的憧憬,能做一番功绩,有朝一日受到皇帝的觐见,授勋。怀着这样年轻人普遍抱有的梦想,Andrew迎来了第一次生死经历。
"What's this? Am I falling? My legs are giving way," thought he, and fell on his back. He opened his eyes, hoping to see how the struggle of the Frenchmen with the gunners ended, whether the red-haired gunner had been killed or not and whether the cannon had been captured or saved. But he saw nothing. Above him there was now nothing but the sky—the lofty sky, not clear yet still immeasurably lofty, with gray clouds gliding slowly across it. "How quiet, peaceful, and solemn; not at all as I ran," thought Prince Andrew—"not as we ran, shouting and fighting, not at all as the gunner and the Frenchman with frightened and angry faces struggled for the mop: how differently do those clouds glide across that lofty infinite sky! How was it I did not see that lofty sky before? And how happy I am to have found it at last! Yes! All is vanity, all falsehood, except that infinite sky. There is nothing, nothing, but that. But even it does not exist, there is nothing but quiet and peace. Thank God!..."
这一段对我的心灵是一次重击,所谓灵魂的震颤,应该就是阅读这一段的感受。Andrew第一次在战争中受伤,falling。不像一些科幻,修仙小说,主角带伤108处,全身经脉断裂,还照样救得过来。做为严肃的经典,这次受伤,不但伤及了Andrew的身体根本,也颠覆了Andrew那颗所谓“赤子之心”。Andrew迅速回到自己家族领地,不但是为了调养身体,更重要的是修复自己整个人生理念的创口。然而打击远远没有结束,回家的Andrew正好赶上了妻子的临产,你可能已经猜到,新生命的到来也带走了他的妻子。而妻子离开的那段描写,也是笔墨颠毫,切到了要点
She was lying dead, in the same position he had seen her in five minutes before and, despite the fixed eyes and the pallor of the cheeks, the same expression was on her charming childlike face with its upper lip covered with tiny black hair.
"I love you all, and have done no harm to anyone; and what have you done to me?"—said her charming, pathetic, dead face.
然而,奇迹发生之后还是消失了。Death已经进入了屋子,即便用爱情关上了门,也同样无法阻挡。令我感到震惊的是对于最后Andrew状态的描写。他已经一半进入了永恒世界,整个人都塌陷了下去,不再对任何世俗世界感兴趣。这并非冷漠,而是感受了大爱之后,即将进入永恒的征兆。因为他再也没有任何理由去关心这个暂时的世界,甚至在自己的妹妹和自己的儿子面前,也并没有什么变化。在最后的时刻,他的眼神只是在询问这个世界还有什么需要他做的吗,比如和自己儿子的告别形式,完成它,他对这个世界也再无任何要求,Andrew就这么离开了。
They both saw that he was sinking slowly and quietly, deeper and deeper, away from them, and they both knew that this had to be so and that it was right.
He confessed, and received communion: everyone came to take leave of him. When they brought his son to him, he pressed his lips to the boy's and turned away, not because he felt it hard and sad (Princess Mary and Natasha understood that) but simply because he thought it was all that was required of him, but when they told him to bless the boy, he did what was demanded and looked round as if asking whether there was anything else he should do.
When the last convulsions of the body, which the spirit was leaving, occurred, Princess Mary and Natasha were present.
"Is it over?" said Princess Mary when his body had for a few minutes lain motionless, growing cold before them. Natasha went up, looked at the dead eyes, and hastened to close them. She closed them but did not kiss them, but clung to that which reminded her most nearly of him—his body.
"Where has he gone? Where is he now?...